I know that my husband and I have just started this journey of baby making but I've had a gut feeling and fear my whole life that I would never be able to conceive. It only made it worse with my irregular periods.
So once again I'm bleeding tonight.. third day in a row... it's faint but it's also accompanied by cramping... the past couple of days it only lasted about an hour and then stopped....
Furthermore every website and book I've read has conflicting statements about "implantation bleeding", if that is truly what I'm experiencing. If not then it's my "period" if you could even call it that.
But a big part of me thinks it's my period. And if it is my period it makes me sad and makes me think that my biggest fear would be true.
Lord please give me strength. I'm so blessed with such an awesome supportive husband. Everytime I take a test and it comes back negative it makes me feel like a failure :(
I also feel stupid because early on I had so many signs... I was truly certain I was pregnant and now I am so afraid to mutter the words that I'm not :*(
tonight my stomach is cramping alot... it feels as though my insides are being clawed... I truly truly hope that means good news... I've never experienced such cramping and bloating before for any period so I truly truly pray that it will be good news.
I just read another website that says that I might not get a positive read for a whole week AFTER the expected period dates... If so that means I might not get a positive result, if it's positive, for a whole entire week more...
So lots of prayers and positive energy
I love my husband for being the amazing person he is. Thank you love.
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