update

It's been a long time since I've posted. I usually do this from the ease of my cellphone, thus explaining the short ramblings. This time I had a moment to sit down to write out how things are going.

Kind of a weird month. I think I explained (briefly) about having more than one period within 2 weeks. I'm beginning to think the 2nd period was really a miscarriage. Because 2 weeks after the "2nd period" I had another period. So I'm really truly confused.

I took a home prego test a couple of days ago and it was negative. So nothing positive yet. I was really hoping that it would happen this month because I lost my Grandfather on the 4th. I was hoping it would bring some joy for the family, and for me.

I've been taking prenatals from Target and I think those suckers make me sick. I've read that it happens because of the iron. I'm not really sure. I've done some research and I've heard alot of positive feedback for Stuart's prenatals so I just ordered them this week. I'm looking forward to trying them.

I'm feeling kinda naceous now but it's probably because I'm up past my bedtime and something I ate probably didn't settle well.

I must admit, it really messes with you to NOT get pregnant when you're trying. It feels like everyone can get pregnant EXCEPT YOU. And to top it off my husband already had a child from a previous relationship, so I know it's all me as to why it's not working. I'm really scared to go get examined just because I don't want to be told it's impossible. Not that I've let something like that stop me from trying something but I'm already feeling down about it and I feel like that would just make me feel worse. To top it off I just had a friend, that has fertility problems herself, tell me that the DR won't even want to talk to me unless we've been trying for a year first.

She also told me that eating Yams helps the egg stick to the wall of your uterus. So.... I bought some yams and I think I'll make them tomorrow :)

For all of you out there TTC I feel your pain, and frustrations, and depression.

Love and baby dust to you all